Where I am at now.
After my divorce from a partner whom struggled with addiction at times, and everything that goes along with that, of our relationship, I found myself diving headfirst into the sex positive and queer communities, seeking a sense of belonging and understanding I had never experienced before. That same year, I made the brave decision to cut ties with my family, who had always made me feel like 'less than' within the family dynamic. This newfound freedom led me on a journey of self-discovery.
Over time, I delved into the world of kink and even achieved a personal milestone by winning a leather title. This was not just a personal triumph but also a symbol of my newfound strength and autonomy. Alongside this, I developed a strong preference for engaging in sexual activities involving multiple partners, often in the context of group sex or sex parties. It's as if these experiences allow me to embrace my newfound autonomy and challenge societal norms in a unique way.
I've also found immense joy in creating online content and embracing my body on the internet. It's a powerful form of self-expression and control over my own narrative. Being in charge of my image and how I share it empowers me, allowing me to celebrate my body and sexuality on my own terms.
What's truly fascinating to me is the deeper platonic connections I've formed within the sex positive community. I've come to appreciate how this community builds connections through shared experiences, including sex. I identify as polysexual and have even started exploring non-romantic connections with individuals, such as a female partner with whom I engage in MMF threesomes. It's a unique dynamic that allows us to connect on a different level, one that transcends traditional relationship norms.
However, while I've found fulfillment in these various aspects of my life, I've also encountered challenges when it comes to establishing strong one-on-one intimate connections. It's a journey I'm still navigating with empathy for myself, and I'm open to seeking support and healing as I continue to evolve.
